Uncertain

Went away, went away…
Yet as if I never left at all.
I return and people just aren’t interested
In anything that doesn’t involve
Their past four weeks.
I’m starting to feel meek… again

Been afar, been afar…
Yet as if I never wandered.
I am back and they will continue with this.
I can’t blame them for not bothering
Their past four weeks.
I’m starting to feel fake… again

Went away, went away…
Yet as if I never left at all.
I’m here again but life carries on.
I feel nothing for any of them
Their past four weeks
I’m starting to feel something now

I’m starting to feel… unconventional
I’m starting to feel… exceptional
I’m starting to feel… liberal
I’m starting to feel…

Freedom! Freedom from restricted bounds
Escaping from conventional
Loving in the torrential….. rain
It doesn’t matter… it affects us not
All we know is what we have got

Ourselves
And aren’t we always…
Uncertain?

Unknown

Travelled over distances too far to comprehend
Warnings and negativity … it feels like it won’t end
Yet everyday life continues in spite of all the shock
Families, they carry on, there is no stumbling block

I realise you cannot run away from what’s inside
I know you can’t hide
But we can make a half turn…
We can learn

Running for horizons we know we cannot reach
Words of advice and cautionary … it feels like it’s a breech
Of confidence, yet every day, we want to feel alive
Advice is easy to receive when you are paralysed

I realise you cannot run away from what’s inside
I know you can’t hide
But we can make a half turn…
We can learn

Voice

I am strong and I am kind
I care not what I left behind
Because I have seen the light

Childhood is a strange and wonderful thing
Over too soon, yet still it lingers
I embrace it with open arms and dirty fingers
My childhood
Lost like a forgotten dream
Yet now I will have it return to me
Because it should never leave

I am happy and I am free
I am everything I want to be, in heart and in speech
Nothing can quite ever reach
The depths
Of enthusiasm unbound or joy without borders
I am the one who understands
I can taste the promised land
Within me

I will jump for joy on my special day
I can run a thousand miles if you just say
The word
The word of my God
Who comes to me when I need it, my angel
Protecting, nurturing me when I am desperate
And I cannot seperate
Me from my destiny
I don’t know what it is but I will see in time

I am lonely yet I am loved
I have scents from heaven above
I call out when moonlight fades
I will live life in my own way
I am alright
I am free

Valley Of The Kings

It was so hot, too hot, white aglow
Nowhere to take comfort in shadow
These stony pathways leading this way
And that
I feel like a cat who’s been let out to play
In the hottest part of the day

Hot and dusty, that’s how I felt
There were times I stopped and knelt
These stony pathways leading that way
And this
But I don’t want to miss the best part
For here’s a tomb starting
To appear
Is it cooler in here?

It’s not, still hot
And stuffy.
And roughly,
How long since a drink of water?
I really ought to
Drink more.
Think more

Look where I am! Surrounded by faces
Of other tourists, from all different places
Their expressions of awe heading this way
And that
I feel like a cat winding it’s way
Further away from home

And into the mystery of you

Unsaved

I wish I could tell you
Oh, how I wish I could say to you
The deepest secrets of my heart – the hidden joy
That comes to me when no-one hears
The full content of my non-existent tears
But I cannot

I wish I could see you
Oh, even just for a moment
Your flashing eyes so intense – the forbidden
They visualize when night is dark
The total surrender of my passing years
But I dare not

I wish I could hold you
Oh, it doesn’t matter how long…

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